Today joseph showed me pictures of him from years past. He reminds me of dan panachelli when we used to date back when i was fourteen and naive. I feel close to joseph. Part of me wants to run away screaming because this is all new. Part of me wants to stay in his arms forever. On saturday my brother david was married to his sweet heart heather marshall. The wedding was gorgeous. They could not have asked for a better weekend, though it was raining the night of the rehearsal dinner due to hurricane earl, the hurricane took with it the humidity and the feelings of uncertainty a hot wet late summer day can bring and threw us into a fall of oppurtunities,love and bright new futures. I am concerned about my mother. She is looking more and more frail as time wears On. Time, something that no one has enough of, will probably cut her life on ths earth short. But she got what she wanted out of it. My grandmother who is 28years my mothers senior is still kicking and it was awesome and im so glad she got to see my brother get married. I hope shes alive for mine. i met josephs oldest friend jodi and her husband josh. They are two of the coolest people i have met in a long time. Right now im sitting on my stool inside the front door of the bikestop and im wondering if this job is going to be worth it once i start school again full time. I know that i will pass everything with flying colors if i go into theater studies. Im just nervous about what kind of career i could make out of it. Im confident in my acting abilities. But not confident enough. I guess time will tell. Mood: shakey Music: whatever dave anderson is spinning right now. Sounds like 80’s.